SENIOR THESIS: HAYLEY MORRISON

A FEMALE DECISION
The buzzer sounds and the game comes to a close.
Leaving the field is what I dread the most.
The sensation of sweat gliding down my face.
A smell that a floral perfume can not displace.
Frustration, resentment, and fear cloud my sight.
Off the field there is a constant fight.
A fight for who I really am.
A fight between being a jock and liking the glitz and glam.
Playing sports to the best of my ability.
Does that mean that I should lose my femininity?
Slurs thrown left and right
While thoughts of the game tomorrow keep me up at night.
Feeling like I constantly have to dress for the male gaze
To prove that I am girly enough for their taste.
Why must I fit into one specific category?
Can I not appreciate flowers as well as victory?
Sorted into houses like Harry Potter.
We are forced to stereotype one another.
Unlike an ever changing butterfly
We are all simply forced to comply.
Playing a role in a play we didn’t audition for.
The one dimensionality of it all leaves us wanting more.
More options and opportunities galore.
Opportunities to be different and blended.
Not letting a single label be commended.
A woman can be strong in her stature,
As well as fragile in her nature.
Athletic and Feminine,
Beautiful and Strong,
Woman and Sport,
These words can all belong.
How does the sports environment affect the ideas surrounding femininity in our society?
Poem Explanation
After the production of my documentary film where I touched on the issue of stigmas and stereotypes within the female athletic community, I was inspired to take a deeper look at this issue. It is often believed that women have to choose one sort of identity. This identity crisis is usually situated between two worlds, the traditional “feminine” world and the “jock” world. Society often places extreme emphasis on choosing one or the other, “Feminine women are not ruthless, not aggressive, not victorious. It’s not feminine to have a killer instinct, to want to win with all your heart and soul to win…Femininity is about appearing beautiful and vulnerable and small” (Paloian). But why can women not be athletic and also feminine? Why must we choose one word to associate ourselves with?
In this poem I hoped to convey the struggle within the mind of female athletes based on these stigmas. I wanted to place extreme emphasis on the desire to be both and be a blend of many different personalities, and not have one hobby or activity define who you are. Many leagues and teams across the nation try to play into the idea of femininity and preserve it but this has often gone the wrong way. Teams and leagues play into the classic ideas of femininity and lose track of all the possibilities our new society holds, “When the WNBA began 21 years ago, much of the advertising for the league revolved around the femininity of the players…They emphasized the heterosexuality of the players by focusing on the female basketball players who also had children” (Robinson). This is a prime example of the desire to preserve femininity in female athletes by only portraying what we typically look for in women, the idea that they should be with a man and should have children. The WNBA has done extensive work recently to be more inclusive and have a more broadened view of what it means to be a woman and embrace your femininity.
Due to the fact that females have to conform to one identity they believe they have to mold themselves into the person that they title they carry expects. Usually sports are a sanctuary for most, but this can quickly be taken away by society and stereotypes. By being forced to conform to societal norms, females could be turned away from sports because they do not want to be defined by what they choose to participate in. Much like the WNBA the rest of the female sports society has a lot of work to do to be more inclusive and embrace every woman's version of femininity and promote the union between being a woman and an athlete.
Bibliography
Paloian, Andrea. “The Female/Athlete Paradox: Managing Traditional Views of Masculinity and Femininity.” Applied Psychology OPUS, Accessed 10 May, 2022.
Robinson, Hailey. “Does Femininity Matter in Women's Sports?” The Daily of the University of Washington, Accessed 10 May, 2022.